d'cunGkai Yuya

ape yang salah? sape yang salah?

2009-09-01T13:37:00.002+02:00

tak tau nak tulis ape sebenarnye..
penat otak..penat hati..penat segala2nya...
aku mencuba, tapi aku tau tu x cukup lagi..
ape salah aku? aku tau..tapi x tau..

aku xpaham mana asalnye MALAS ni...
xpaham kenapa dia kene ade dalam kehidupan ni...
bila malas, tangguh pon datang...
bila malas, semangat pon lari..
bila malas, sume x jadi...
pernah jadi rajin, tapi malas nak gak bertandang...
kenapa?
pernah tau x?
sape2 tau?
rajin 2 3 hari, lepas tu malas balik...
malas ni minat sangat ke kat manusia?
manusia pon minat malas gak...
ape yang menarik sangat malas tu sampai nak minat dia?
hurm..malas sentiasa ada ngan kita...
malas akan datang bila2 je, walaupon kita x panggil dia...
malas salu bagi kite relek...malas x suke kite keje susah2...
sweet kan malas tu?
pernah dengar cinta itu buta?
haa... pencinta malas ni memang buta...
betol tak?
tau tak malas tu merosakkan hidup?
malas tu memusnahkan masa depan?
malas tu sebenarnye musuh utama kita..
kita sedar, tapi nak gak bertandang nak lepak2 ngan malas tu...
KENAPAAAAA???????

haaaihhhhhh.....bengangnyeeeeeeeeeeee..............

ingin aku melempang si malas itu sehingga terbang jauh dari pandangan dan ingatan...
so long n goodbye malas!

kilab kan rabas kat

2009-08-21T12:13:00.001+02:00

tak sabar nak balik

21 hari lagi
lamenyeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i miss you

2009-07-22T09:16:00.004+03:00

rindunye bile jauh dgn kamu...
ari2 tanye bile nak balik....
mule2 kate nak balik julai....
tertunggu2 laaaa dia bulan julai....
tapi bila dah nak dekat julai, terpaksa tangguh tarikh balik...
september la pulak...
satu janji dah termungkir...
satu lagi janji dibuat....

"balik nanti teman hannah pegi taman ye..janji tau..."
"InsyaALLAH, tapi kak su tak janji..."

satu lagi permintaan...

"kak su belajar sungguh2 ye..nanti balik ajar hannah cemane nak jadi doktor ye..."
"ok, sayang...nanti kak su ajarkan...."

bergetar je hati ni bile chatting ngan si kecil yang baru nak masuk 7thn tu...
pegi tadika pon tamahu, alasannye, hannah bangun lambat laaaaa....
tapi tibe2 masa tgh chatting, "kak su, hannah nak pegi buat keje skolah jap tau.."
aihh? ade pulak keje skolah nye?kate xpegi tadika...macam2....

bile pujuk dia pegi tadika,
cakap kat dia kalau rajin pegi tadika, kak su belikan hadiah...
reti pulak dia balas..
"ooo takpe2..hannah da banyak da hadiaahhh....."
issshhhhh la budak niiiii......macam2....
hurm..hannah kalau baca ni mesti malu2...
the thing is...
kak su rindu hannah....:(

si kecil

I Can't Tell

2009-06-28T08:27:00.003+03:00

life was so miserable for da past few months...

i wanna cry so badly..

i wish im home with my family...

things have gone so bad..i cudnt say it thru my words...

i just wanna cry... n cry... n cry.......

i want this to end..i want things to return back to normal...

i cudnt say it all, even with all my friends around...

i hate to complain..i hate to blame....

but i was being blamed...i was being complained....

Darn

2009-06-10T17:58:00.003+03:00

i hate every single thing here..
i wanna go back home....
im lost..
im feeling insecure...
i am nothing...
i wanna let go of everything inside..
i wanna scream...
i wanna cry....
i wanna stop pretending...

stupid!

Double S For Life...

2009-06-01T00:43:00.003+03:00

Salam all~

harap sumenye dalam keadaan yang baik..
to all my frens yang tengah exam, Gambate Kudasai!
time run so fast, so make sure we make full use of it..
just do all u can, then just leave it to Him..
wether He wants u to succeed, or He wants u to repeat it all again just to make sure u make it a better one..

Syukur & Sabar..

dats wat i mean with double S..
it was my mum's word for me..sebabnye, anak dye ni sukeeee la sangat nak sedeh2 bagitau maknye, betapa susahnye belajar perkakas Medic ini...
maka, kuarlah dua perkataan berguna itu...
bersyukur dengan ape yang kite dapat dan bersabar dengan ape yang berlaku....

bersyukur.. macam mane?
from my point of view la..
let us bersyukur dengan segala ape yang kita ada...
kesihatan, peluang untuk meneruskan cita2, kefahaman dalam pelajaran, konsisten dalam study, dan lain2...

bersyukur dengan ape saje yang kite mampu buat...
bukan semua manusia kat dunia ni dapat peluang untuk kejar cita2 diorang..
contoh?
ade yang kene study ikut kate mak ayah, tapi tak minat..
ade jugak yang dapat kerja yang x sesuai dengan diri, atau kerja yang xde kene mengena dengan ape yg diorg belajar...
so, bersyukurlah kite yang dapat peluang itu... :)

dan bukan semua manusia punya kekuatan untuk teruskan perjuangan..
ade yang sakit masa study week, lagi teruk bagi yang sakit masa exam!
ade yang patah semangat tengah2 jalan, last2 putus asa dan berhenti mencuba..

yang lain2 korang huraikan sendiri la ye.. ;p

Sabar...
semua orang boleh cakap kat kite untuk sabar..
tapi kadang2 yang bercakap tu sendiri x boleh nak sabar...(kate kat saye la tu..)
biasa la tu..
tapi, manusia yang kuat adalah manusia yang tinggi kesabarannye...
contoh?
sabar bile menghadapi kesusahan..
cmane?
kurangkan merungut..cari jalan untuk selesaikan kesusahan itu..dan think positive!

dalam dunia ni, banyak benda yang x adil...kat situ jugak kite perlu sabar...
bile sabar, x banyak la sangat beban kat bahu ni...
kepala pon x serabut, hati pon tenang...
senang nak buat ape2 kerja pon...

sabar...sabar...sabar...
syukur dan syukur dan syukur...

cukuplah dua perkara tu dulu untuk bg kite kekuatan...
lain2 bende, kita boleh tambah lagi bila kita dah belajar untuk sabar dan syukur....

p/s : not everybody can get wings to fly, so before we get the wings, just do whatever we can do..

(ayatku sendiri yang dipetik dari satu cerite omputih tp diubah skit sbb x ingt exact words)

dats all from me tonite..
hope u guys stay cool n enjoy every little thing u do..
peace from egypt (^_^)V

Chapter 4

2009-05-30T12:29:00.004+03:00

Alhamdulillah...
Physio yg susah suda ditutup bukunya..
Histo yg di taken for granted juga suda kembali ke raknye..
Biochem kegemaranku juga suda abis...

stepping to next chapter of exam....

Anatomy~

yeay!! i loike!!

written biochem sucks..but oral biochem, wow!

pasni study anat dengan bersungguh2nya..

Oh God...please make me a hardworking girl..........

Sekian catatan harian ku..

Happiness...

2009-05-26T05:41:00.003+03:00

A 92-year-old, petite, well-poised and proud man,
who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with his hair fashionably combed and shaved perfectly, even though he is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today.

His wife of 70 years recently passed away, making
the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, he smiled sweetly when told his room was ready.
As he maneuvered his walker to the elevator, I
provided a visual description of his tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on his window.

I love it,' he stated with the enthusiasm of an
eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy.

Mr. Jones, you haven't seen the room; just wait.
'That doesn't have anything to do with it,' he replied.

Happiness is something you decide on ahead of time.

Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how
the furniture is arranged ... it's how I arrange my mind. I already
decided to love it.

'It's a decision I make every morning when I wake
up. I have a choice;

I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty
I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of
bed and be thankful for the ones that do.

Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open,
I'll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I've stored away.. Just for this time in my life.

Old age is like a bank account. You withdraw from
what you've put in. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories!

Thank you for your part in filling my Memory Bank.

I am still depositing.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

Sharing an email from my dad..

Hope u guys stay happy all the time.. :)

Sebelum Menyesal

2009-05-21T16:49:00.003+03:00

Jika kamu memancing ikan....
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....

Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia semula ke dalam air begitu saja....
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu
dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga ........
Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang...
Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....
Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu. ...

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu.
Mengenyangkan.
Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.
Kamu akan MENYESAL.
Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....
yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.
MENYAYANGIMU. ..
MENGASIHIMU. ..

Mengapa kamu berlengah,
cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN.
Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain..
Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL...

-Copied from YM forwarded msg-

Why?

2009-05-19T00:04:00.003+03:00

exam..
study...

all of us feel da same pressure...
more pressure for those who carry 2 heavy subjects like
anatomy n physiology..
for me..i only carry one big subject which is physiology
and a simple subject, biochemistry..

but the pressure i feel now maybe the same as others
for biochemistry is considered as a heavy subject for me...

syasya is feeling down rite now..she needs her mom..
eya..is thinking bout going back to malaysia
right after the final paper...
which means early july..
nana also seems like she needs her family..
but the internet sucks..no skype for her..

well maybe its a good thing when we can communicate with our family
thru the internet..skype, yahoo messenger..etc..
compared to our parents during the past years..
they only can communicate with their family thru mails..
airmail..which took a quite long time to be delivered n to b replied..
we shud b grateful..

but its normal to miss our precious far family..
we really need them..
to give us support..to help us smile in this hectic n depressing time..

as for me, messaging with my dad is like a routine..
which makes me feel so happy..
even a small fight with abah makes me smile sometimes, despite of
the sad feeling i had...
but i also had some time feeling so down..

i was thinking..wondering..
dont we have our own strength to keep on striving without feeling
such a negative feeling?
why must we be so down for not having our family next to us?
not that i dont think dat family is important..
but we are far abroad from our home sweet home..
we can only depend on ourselves for anything we do...

i hope i can b so strong..
same goes to my lovely friends..
the path for success is still long way to go...
lets enjoy the journey..
for there wud b no success unless failures had already made
their way..
not saying failure in exams..maybe failure of keeping up the strength..
failure of being relax n calm in facing many circumstances.....

-end of entry-

Jangan Pernah Lepaskan Aku

2009-05-14T16:24:00.004+03:00

satu detik lalu.. dua hati terbang tinggi...lihat indahnya dunia...membuat hati terbawa...dan bawaku kesana..dunia fatamorgana..termanja-manja oleh rasa...dan ku terbawa terbang tinggi oleh suasana.....

dari sudut mata...jantung hati mulai terjaga...berbisik di telinga, cuba ingat semua..

dan bangunkanlah aku...dari mimpi mimpiku...sesat aku di sudut maya....dan tersingkir dari dunia nyata..dan bangunkanlah aku...dari mimpi indah ku...terengah anganku berlari dari rasa yang harus ku batasi...

...dan kau menawarkan rasa cinta dalam hati...

ku tak tahu harus bagaimana untuk raba mimpi atau nyata dan bedakan rasa dan suasana dalam rangka sayang atau cinta yang sebenarnya...

dan bangunkanlah aku dari buta mataku

...jangan pernah lepaskan aku...

untuk tenggelam dalam mimpiku

Berkampung Di Rabie' St.

2009-05-13T15:05:00.003+03:00

Sesungguhnya aku merindui rumahku di Tir'ah..

tapi, umah ni dye ni pon ok..

subwoofer mantap + 4 speakers..
lagu pon menaikkan semangat....haha

bilik penoh kapet...
tidak lupe haiwan2 peliharaan beliau yang menjadi bahan pelukan semasa tidur..

sotong
unta
sniffing dog
katak hijau yg lembek2 itu
lembu moo

stok2 makanan yang xpernah kehabisan...

muruku
kerepek ubi pedas
biskut2 pelbagai

jap lagi na pegi beli susu kotak berkotak2..

suasana kesepahan..
manusia + buku + makanan + bola besar + barang2 lain..
i like it! hahaha...

umah saye pule?
ohhh....
toilet n kitchen is under renovation..
so terpaksa berkampung...hohoho...

marilah kite berkampung...
si nomad..

Abah...

2009-05-11T14:21:00.002+03:00

Abah busy...
taleh na cakap ngan dye..

Abah..
su taleh wat exam dua ari ni..
tapi tanak cakap kat abah..
abah busy amat...
pastu td kate tade mood...
sory abah..
tau sory je x cukup...
i can say nothing...
just bole cakap xleh wat...
:(

sory..
dabel sory...
dun ask me y cuz i might give u excuses....
which u never like.....

Aku Mahu

2009-05-11T02:03:00.002+03:00

NAK BALIK

M A L A Y S I A

S E K A R A N G ! !

Ikan Paus Mati Dalam Perigi...

2009-05-11T01:35:00.005+03:00

Killer subject essay exam baru je lepas..
hanya mampu berdiam diri...

sory frenz..i went back alone saying nothing..

i was juz too depressed...
i shivered a lot in the hall...
my head was like ticking the bomb time..
rase macam nak meletop..
sakit sangat kepala...
i wish i dun have to tell this..
for u guys might have been fed up of my all kind of sakit..
dats y i just keep myself quiet...

aku tamo sume bende ni...
aku jugak yakin yang aku mampu habiskan revision dalam target masa yang aku da tetapkan..
tapi aku hanya mampu merancang..
kenape aku lemah..?
kenape aku xmampu buat umi abah proud?
aku nak berjaya..
aku tanak gagal...
aku na usaha sebaik mungkin...

hurm..
menapak into umur 20-an..
life mula jadi susah..
masalah menimpa2..
pandai2 la nak cari jalan n cari cara....
aku?
masih terkapai2..
masih mencari2...
masih di tingkat 1 kehidupan..
sedangkan bangunan kehidupan berpuluh2 tingkat..

penat?
xpenat...
tapi meluahkan..
penat jugak la.. hahah...
bile mule tergelincir dalam perjalanan menuju cita2..
perasaan mula ragu2 untuk meneruskan perjalanan itu...
hati mula tawar...semangat mula turun...
tapi keinginan masih ada...

bila bercakap sorang2...ayat2 pon jadi tergantung...
fikiran bercampur aduk...

haih..senangnya jadi kanak2...xperlu fikir banyak..
tapi..xboleh camtu...setiap orang membesar..
setiap orang akan mengalami benda sama...
tapi lain cara...lain masa...lain tempat..lain kes....
hidup itu masalah...bukanlah hidup namanya kalau xde masalah...
tugas kita...enjoy masalah itu dan selesaikan dengan betul...

-kemerapuan-

Status Hari Ini

2009-05-08T17:19:00.003+03:00

Assalamualaikum...

hehe...
hari ni...
telah ku mengeluarkan diri pergi makan..
lalu melepakkan diri kejap ngan pekerja2 seangkatan denganku sewaktu dulu...
berborak2 dan bercerita2....
lalu pulang sambil berjalan2...
singgah kat kedai bunga dan membeli bunga...
4 kuntum bunga apentah kaler putih...
lagi 3 kuntum kaler pink..

suhhh-wiiiittt bunga itu...

dan buat petama kali dalam hidupku...
daku menggubah bunga dalam pasu...
huahuahua..
inilah hasilnye...

abah tgk ni abah...tunjuk kat ummi skali!!

TADAAA...~~

~Gubahan Muyya~

lawa x?? haha...
masa tengah gubah2 tu tefikir la kalo2 x leh gubah ngan ok pada pandangan mata, cane la na ngadap mak mertua nanti...
dalam ati doa2 la x dapat mak mertua yg ceh-re-wet...mintak jaohh...

haha...lupe plak..
nak memberitahu..
status hari ini...
diriku terasa seperti sudah sihat..
syukur pada Tuhan..
saye mampu tersenyum.. :)

haa ape lagi?
study la..!

im coming dearly books..

Kelembapan Diri..haha

2009-05-08T17:12:00.002+03:00

42 perkataan

Speedtest

hurm....
ni je aku leh wat...
ta boleh jadi neyh...

tp secara jujurnya aku da wat test ni dalam 7 kali gak la..
ni paling tinggi aku dapat..
huahuahua....

na try wat gak ke?
klik kat speedtest atas tuh kay...

(^_^)

2009-05-06T10:22:00.004+03:00

Alhamdulillah...
im feeling much2 better today..
my pain is reducing..
i can sit longer than before..
my black-painted memory seemed to be deleted...
or may be kept in a hidden file..either or..

im actually running out of time for my revision for my 1st essay exam this sunday..
im scared n afraid..
whether i can make it or not...
i dun wanna make my unhealthiness as an excuse..
i still got time..
running as fast as possible to catch the time passed..
haha...impossible i guess...
well..everything is possible..
there can b miracle..
only if u believe!
haha...

ummi kate.. : YOU ARE WHAT YOU BELIEVE...

so..lets do it kawan2..~

ummi, abah..please pray for my health,my strength n my success...

Till we meet again in da next entry...
Great apologies for bitter unpleasant words in previous entry..

Unforgiven Fucking Jerk

2009-05-04T11:03:00.004+03:00

You
are
the
worst
person
on
earth

I
will
not
forgive
you

Your
bullshit
action
wont
leave
my
head

You
will
never
get
my
forgiveness

You
caused
another
trauma
another
hate
another
pain
another
anger

You
are
an
asshole
fucking
jerk

You
dont
deserve
a
life
here
even
in
any
place
on
earth

I
wish
I
could
cut
your
chest
and
take
your
heart
out

I
wish
I
could
take
out
your
intestine
and
hang
them
on
the
tree

You
painted
black
blood
in
my
heart
my
memory
my
soul

Never Felt Like This Before

2009-05-02T05:51:00.002+03:00

its the pain..
im having rite now..
its killing me..
sakit....
i am holding my tears back..
try not to cry...
abah..sakit...

duduk salah..
bediri salah..
meniarap pon salah..
baring..? salah jugak...
pastu cane?
tahan je la...

ohh pinggangku..bertahan lah...
na exam niiii... :(

Jai Ho!

2009-04-29T07:14:00.003+03:00

Just now i sat on the floor with my notes in my hand...
reading n memorizing things for my upcoming exam..
biochemistry practical exam on thursday..
argghhh...i cant concentrate!

i tried a few positions to get into da mood..
nothing changed...

i stared at my laptop..i cant see 'Abah' on my YM list...
so terrible i felt..
even more when two of my mates didnt even look away from their books!

its ok..relax.....
figuring how..i approached my lappy...
turned on 'Jai Ho' song in my winamp..
i heard da song from 'Slumdog Millionaire' movie i recently watched..
this is how the song goes..

(Jai Ho)
I got shivers,
When you touch away,
I'll make you hot,
Get all you got,
I'll make you wanna say (Jai Ho)

I got fever,
Running like a fire,
For you I will go all the way,
I wanna take you higher (Jai Ho)
I keep it steady
Cuz steady is how I feel it.
This beat is heavy, so heavy,
You gon feel it.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Ho!
(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,
I want you now,
I know you can save me, come and save me,
I need you now.
I am yours forever, yes, forever,
I will follow,
Anywhere in anyway,
Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho

Escape away,
I'll take you to a place,
This fantasy of you and me,
I'll never lose the chase. (Jai Ho)

I can feel you,
Rushing through my veins,
There's a notion in my heart,
I will never be the same.

(Jai Ho)Just keep it burnin', yeah baby,
Just keep it comin', (Jai Ho)
You're gonna find out, baby,
I'm one in a million.

I need you,
Gonna make it,(Jai Ho)
I'm ready,
So take it!

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us,(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Jai Ho!

before i forgot, Jai Ho means Victory..
i relate this song with victory, spirit n determination..
got wut i mean? heheh...
its like u r talking to ur own spirit on achieving ur victory!
get it, rite? good for u.. :smile:

Life goes on whatever the circumstances are..
Smile n the world will smile to u...
Be strong n live with hope...

Bila harus memilih...

2009-04-21T13:27:00.004+02:00

N_ _ _ _ @ N********

bila?

perlukah?

mungkin belum....

tapi akan...

mungkin ya...

mungkin tidak...

yang terbaik..

itu yang pasti...

Personality Quiz.. Wanna Try n Be A Confident You?

2009-04-16T21:58:00.003+02:00

I am currently interested in finding who am i..what is my potential..

but just thru quizzes which I believe can be trusted..

so this is my result, n im satistied with it~

Let's check it out...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

So...this is me..!
Wanna make yours?
here's da link.. Good Luck!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

My Heart Deploys In February~

2009-04-16T03:07:00.004+02:00

I was born in February....
So these are the characters of February person.. ;)

Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Attractive
Sexy
Temperamental
Quiet, shy and humble
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Gets angry really easily but does not show it
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Tries to learn to show emotions

Baru!

2009-04-14T00:14:00.003+02:00

TaDaAaaa...!!

heheheh...welcome to my blog!! suda baru n suda sempoi dan simple n senang diuruskan...teehee! ;)

Tade idea mau tulis maa...
serabut ngan exam..
exam da la dua bulan lebeh!
karam la otak aku..~

tgh rindu family kat mesia ni...
pg tadi baru je lepas menyekaipkan diri ngan meke...
jeles tengok diorang boleh lawat melawat antara satu same lain...
AKU?? kat seberang benua ni...cane tah na pegi melawat...
tapi xpe...tahun ni aku mau raya kat mesia...
ngan family ku n kawan2 ku..~ yeeeaaayyy~

sedang merindui kawan2 chattingku juga...
ade yang da nak kawen...
ade yang sibuk ngan keje....
ade yang da lame x online...
haih...mane la korang sume..

tunggu je la update baru nanti..
ade kot idea lewat2 nanti...
now..otak kurang menggila..huahuahua..
menjadi manusia baik buat seketika..ahaks~
so, see you guys around!

summer is coming but im still freezing...deerrrrrr......

teehee!

2009-03-27T15:35:00.005+02:00

Nak update jugak..tapi..tak sempat lagi...
Rindu sume orang..
Rindu Mesia....

Selepas Cahaya

2008-12-26T06:30:00.002+02:00

Duduk berseorangan atas katil dalam bilik sambil dgr lagu….
Tiba-tiba baru aku pasan, dah lame x ase camni…
Rase ape eyh?

Aku sgt2 la hepi sbb skang nih aku da bejaya tido di malam hari…!!
Tido malam sgt menggembirakan hati aku bile bangun di pagi hari…hehehe…
Bile bgn je…ase cam zaman skola dulu…bgn kol 6 pg..mandi2 n siap2 tuk pegi skola…
Wat scramble egg makan ngn roti..wat susu panas..wahh…lazatnye….
Kalo ade buah baru beli n salad atau tomato..tibe2 bekfes aku jadi skit spesel…(skit je la)

Berbekalkan pinggan yg diamik dr flight… aku berangan makan atas flite…
Pinggan tuk main dish tu aku letak telur ngan roti..pastu ade mangkuk kecik sikit tu…
Aku letak tomato ngan stoberi yg aku beli kat kedai buah kt lorong blkg umah…
Malangnya cawan yg diamik dr flite tu aku x suke gune sbb kecik sgt…
So aku pakai mug aku tuk wat susu...lebeh kurang camtu la menu bekfes aku dr zaman skola menengah dulu…
walaupon dulu aku bgn kul 6 pg n bas nak pegi skola kul 6.40 pg…
Bayangkan ke‘rush’an aku menyediakan sume tu… nk menggeliat lg..nk mandi lg...kalo perut meragam pg2 tu…haih…xtau nk kate cane..tp..bekfes tetap menjadi kewajipan tuk aku!! Heheh…
cmane2 pon, for sure aku enjoy mende2 tu sume…n camtu jugak la aku wat tuk zaman skola atas menengah ni… bosan x kehidupan aku?

Da abis bekfes aku kua umah ngan hepinye n jalan pegi skola a.k.a Uni aku skang…
Sambil gelak2 wat lawak bodo tgh2 jalan, sambil kutuk2 manusia2 yg ade kat tgh jalan…
Aku ngn kawan aku tetap setia menghabiskan langkah sampai ke klas…

Kehidupan kat kelas xde la best sgt cam yg diharapkan…tp..keceriaan kanak2 skola aku tetap memberi sinar gelak ketawa aku sepanjang hari kat situ…cis ayat cam tuuuuuttt….

Balik je dr skola trus singgah restoran melayu tmpt aku penah keje dulu…makan sambil bermesra2 dgn bakal somi aku a.k.a tukang masak no 2 kat situ..huahuahua… bukan ape.. macam best lak kalo tibe2 dpt somi yg pandai masak ;) aku da la x pandai bab2 memasak ni..hihihi… tp tu hanyalah angan2 kosong yg tahpape…

Sebenarnye ape yg wat aku nak cite pasal ni is..td aku duk tas katil ni sambil mengeluarkan buku2 skola dr beg skola aku…trus tringat zaman skola dulu…so dr situ la aku mendapat idea tuk entry kali nihhh….hihihihi….
Haih…rindu jugak kadang2 zaman skola dulu….kan kan?

Da abis da cite…

Catatan Buat Bulan...

2008-12-24T19:24:00.002+02:00

bulan...ooo bulan.... skang ni da masuk musim sejuk... kalo jln2 kt luar tu.. kdg2 bole jadi layang2... angin sgt kuat... bak kate pepatah baru dijumpai... "Di bawah cahaya yg terik, aku menggigil kesejukan" dlm keterikan matahari yg menggigit tubuh tu kan bulan.. lecak2 pon penuh kt jalan... mansoura salu ujan... bulan...ooo bulan.. kt sni exam mid year da stat.. budak2 sume da mule sibuk duk umah...study la kot.. tp, kdg2 x nmpk matahari pon dlm satu dua ari..sbb bgn je da magrib..hihi.. bulan..oooo bulan... kalo tgk bulan on9..ase cam nk borak2..tp salu ade palang BUSY tu... so..tamo la kaco..tp kan bulan...kitorg riiindu kt bulan... bila bulan nk balik sini balik...? bulan..ooo bulan... nnt kalo bulan balik sini jgn lupe adiah besday eh... nak gitaaaarrr.....huhuhuhu..... bole eh bulan eh... bulan kan penyayang... bulan...balikla........

Untitled

2008-12-15T20:26:00.008+02:00

Sambil mengisap ganja aku coretkan ape yg terbuku dalam diri aku...
Satu perasaan yg aku pon xpasti ape mendalahnye..
beberapa mggu lepas aku hidup tanpa arah tujuan..
hidup aku hanyalah makan tido mandi duduk...
paralysed soul..itulah ayat yang aku describe diri aku sekarang..
hidup aku da tak macam dulu..
sikit2 aku diberi maklumat pasal kekurangan2 yang aku ada dalam diri aku...
tu kawan aku yg lonjong yg bagitau..walaupon aku membantah sume yg dia kate..
tapi..tu la hakikatnye..
akulah manusia yg pemalas..selekeh...xpandai mengurus diri emosi mental n sumenye..
aku duduk diam dan berfikir..xde la fikir sangat..
tapi..aku xleh nafikan yang diri aku mmg sgt teruk skrg...
sampaikan ayah aku ajak pegi mekah wat umrah..hati aku berbelah bagi...
kenapa aku mesti rasa camtu....mgkn aku tersasar jauh dr landasan yg sepatutnya aku berada..
aku perlukan pembimbing..sbb aku x mampu membimbing diri aku...
ilmu2 asas agama aku lintang pukang..adakah aku terlalu berdosa...
dalam masa yg same..aku juga fikir yg aku x boleh bergantung pada org lain...
sbb ape yg aku buat, sumenye atas diri aku..
aku nak menangis..tp air mata xnak kuar..keras sgt ke hati aku?
aku tau x ramai yg akan baca entry ni..hanya yang ambil kisah pasal aku je yg akan singgah kat page ni..
tarik nafas dalam2....aku xdapat berfikir...
diam..itu je yg mampu aku buat..

If Only...

2008-12-03T04:05:00.005+02:00

Lagi sejam masuk waktu subuh..mata aku x reti nak lelap2 lagi..
haih..camni la bile da masuk musim sejuk..malam bejaga, siang lak tido..

Tapi..malam ni lain lak ceritanya..lain perasaannya..lain ingatannya...
Entah kenapa malam ni ingatan pada 'dia' sangat kuat..
Semua memori n kenangan 9 bulan lepas terimbas balik..
Udang masak merah..sedapnye..

Masa tu, everything was so beautiful..dat person yg aku kenal sgt2 aku respect..
sgt aku hormati..sgt aku kagumi...sgt aku sayang..
Dia mengajar aku terlalu byk perkara..smpai aku x penah nmpk keburukan pada diri dia..
He's always there when i need sumone to talk to..
Dia xpenah tinggal aku bila aku menangis..
Dia yang mengajar aku erti sebuah kehidupan, erti sebuah keluarga, erti sebuah hubungan..
Dia kenalkan aku dgn kegigihan...
Dia pernah jatuh, tapi semangat dia sgt kuat..
Walaupon dia pernah menangis depan aku, itulah dia yg sebenarnye..
Hati pon lembut..xpernah berkasar ngan aku walaupon sekali..
Bile aku terabai walaupon sekejap, dia terus betulkan keadaan..
He always try to improve every single thing in his life..
He never forget to think about 'US'..
Dia yang buat aku tersenyum..
He loves children so much...
Dia simple..tp perfectionist..
He got everything dat i want for my Mr. Right..

Until dat time when everything was out of control..
He seemed to be out of his way..
And everything changed...
Itulah kali pertama i put da blame on him...

Bile dia xde..aku cube melangkah n teruskan kehidupan tanpa dia..
He's still there..tp just untuk menyokong aku untuk hidup tanpa dia..
Hanya ada kawan2 n seorang manusia yg cube aku jadikan pengganti dia..
Tapi..dia hanyalah dia..xde yg same ngan dia..

I missed him everytime i cry, cuz he's d only one who wud sit n stay with me when i cry..he dont even look away..how sweet n how wonderful dat guy was..
I missed him everytime i got decision to make..cuz he wud always give me the best opinion..
I missed him when i listen to d songs dat we used to sing..

If only i cud tell him how much i missed him..
If only we cud go back to the time when we were together..
If only we cud proceed the 6-year-plan..

kadang2 tu sebenarnye selalu?

2008-11-11T16:18:00.003+02:00

satu hari, ade sorang cikgu ni bebel2 kat anak murid dye..camni bunyiknye..

kadang2 ape yg kita rasa, x sama ngan ape yg org lain rasa
kadang2 ape yg kita fikir, x sama ngan ape yg org lain fikir
kadang2 ape yg kita nak, x sama ngan ape yg org lain nak

kadang2 kita fikir org x memahami kita,
tapi sebenarnye kita yg xnak faham org lain..

kadang2 kita rasa org lain xkesah ape yg kita rasa,
tapi sebenarnye kita yg xpenah kesah ape yg org lain rasa..

kadang2 kita rasa org lain slalu dapat lebih,
tapi sebenarnye kita yg xnak usaha untuk dapat lebeh..

kadang2 kita rasa org lain tu sombong,
tapi sebenarnye kita yg bongkak..

kadang2 kita kate org slalu salahkan kite,
tapi kite xsedar kita slalu salahkan org..

kadang2 kita nak org pentingkan kita,
tapi kita x pentingkan org lain..

kadang2 kita nak org tu wat macam2 kat kita,
tapi kita xpena wat ape2 tuk org lain..

kadang2 kita rasa kita slalu x benasib baik,
tapi kita x pena fikir pasal org lain yg lagi x benasib baik..

kadang2 kita salu suruh org bersyukur,
tapi kita sentiasa x puas ati ngan ape yg kita ade..

kadang2 kita slalu mengata org,
tapi kita x tau org pon kutuk kita..haha

kadang2 kita ase kita da ade sumenye,
tapi sebenarnye kita KOSONG..

kadang2 kita kejar ape yg kita sangat2 nak,
sampai ape yg kita ade HILANG..

kadang2 kita terlalu fikir ape yg xperlu fikir,
sampai ape yg perlu difikir x terfikir..

kadang2 kita terlampau gembira,
sampai tibe2 kita terlalu sedih..

kadang2 aku pon x pasan ape yg aku tulis
sampai korang pon da tertanya2 bila karangan ni nak abis?

haa..
skang ni cube teka ade bape pekataan
'kadang2'
'sebenarnye'
'slalu'
???

~conteng2 lepas abis klas~

Akhir Ramadhan yg Menggembirakan~

2008-09-28T13:31:00.003+02:00

Assalamualaikum..huhu..pestime bg salam..isk...truk tol....

another lifetime story to be told...another happy moment to be shared...
i was having a bad time last nite...fortunately, hati yang kesedihan akhirnya menerima kinda great gift from HIM...ape ye?

sambil2 mengemas segala barang dalam bilik tuk dipindahkan ke rumah baru..
sambil2 meluahkan perasaan kat kawanku syasya...
sambil2 mengangkut barang2 ke rumah baru di subuh hari yg sejuk...
after a tiring work of making up my new room...
after a great work of altering my jubah ( baju raya, yeay! )..
huh..byk tol perjalanan..!

sebenarnye nak bgtau u all yg yuya dah berjaya melayakkan diri ke seken year medic!!!

saje je nk panjang2kan ayat...panjang2kan cite...sungguh tade idea untuk merepek...
i feel so happy n it was a great miracle ever~
ingtkn da x layak naek tahun...ingtkn kene repeat da whole year balik...
tp skang harapan n semangat tuk meneruskan misi mencapai cita2 aku sudah membara..!!
thank GOD i made it!!

tp..sumthing's missing now..x dpt nk share same...how i wish i cud tell u this...
how i wish u knew dat i gave my best shot on dat paper i did the revision with u...
i wish i cud~
:sigh:

Raya Lagi...

2008-09-25T20:33:00.004+02:00

Arini dapat kad raya dari Angah ku Lexcumi lak...hehehe..

thanx angah for da semat card..hikhik..rusak bahasaku..

cantek kapal tuh..

Lucky~

2008-09-20T22:04:00.003+02:00

Sumone gave me this song...a very beautiful lyrics...
I found this clip..kinda cute..sume fairy tales yg penah aku tgk..

finding nemo--peterpan--cinderella
sleeping beauty--101 dalmations
beauty n da beast--the lil mermaid--snow white--lion king--alladin

teringat zaman kanak2 dulu..huhu...

come! lets enjoy da song..

Tag Pertamaku..hikhik..dr Kelapanyoq

2008-09-19T16:13:00.010+02:00

Huahuahua...
Akhirnye aku di smart tag juge ulih kelapa nyor ku yg disayangi..hikhik...
Selama ni aku baca je tag2 manusia yg lain...tingin gak nak lalu lane smart tag neh..
sbb besenye lalu kat Touch N Go jerk..huhuhu....
mari kite menjawab tag kelapanyoq.....

1. Berapa pasang baju raya anda taun ni dan kaler apekah?

huu...mizz soklan ape ni...baru soklan petama da tatawu nak jawab pe..
hehe...tahun neh wt dosa besaq kat mak bapak..so tadak baju raya.. :((
kaler lagi la tadak... tp..kalo berangan..hekhek..nak baju kurung sepasang, cheongsam selai, sari pon satu..sume toh nak kaer miraahhhhhh....huahuahua....
next next....

2. Apakah makanan raya tradisional kegemaran anda?

wahh...apsal kene pikir neh..jap jap..ketupat..erm..bese2 je..
lemang..xde la suke sangat...rendang kot....haaaa..lazat2...
haa..baru ingt...kalo raya kat umah aku salu abah wat sate...slurrpp...
ohhh abah..pos la sate mu ke sini...... ummi lak kompom wat beriyani stail bukhari tuh..wah wah...nak balik.... :((
dahh...cukup pasal makanan... [-x

3. Apakah biskut raya kegemaran anda?

isk makanan lagi... ~X(
haa..neh musti korang teke kueh arab sbb aku tecampak kat arab raya2 nih...huahuahua...
tapi...aku x suke kueh arab..sbb nnt lekat2 kat lam molot...isk..x best sungguh..
semekut raya kegemaran koi...asenye...tat nenas ngan semperit....hihihi...
kalo mkn tat nenas koi suke ngap satu tat sekaligus sbb dye suke hancur2...:(
semperit sgt lazat..tatau la nape..nape eik?

4. Bape banyak duit raya anda dapat n spend untuk bagi kat bebudak?

Neh soklan best gak neh...disebabkan koi wat pangai baek ngn papa miki koi...ade la skit2 papa bg koi duet aye...hikhik....bape yek dye bagi?? tu rasierrr.....kan papa kan...hikhik....
duit raya nk bagi kt bebudak..:-? cam tade bebudak yg aku tingin bagi duit raya pon kat sini...tggu la tahun depan koi pikir nk bagi ke x kat adik2 koi...kalo da kawen tahun depan tepaksa la bagi..:(
psst baby, kite xya kawen lagi la yek..nnt duit abes bg duit aye kat adek2 i..hukhuk..

5. Apakah aktiviti malam raya korang?
Ape la soklan..kompom la aktibiti mcm malam pertama.. ;))
kalo thn lepas aku spend malam raya aku ngn ngadap laptop sambil masak kuah kacang ngn mendalah2 lain lagi...thn ni koi ase nak ngadap peti sejuk je kot..korek2 mknn yg ade lam tu sambil memboncetkan perut... (sedeh sbb xle raya mesia gak thn ni)

Hehe..da abis da soklan..

nak tag sape yek pasni?
sume list membe2 yg koi tau sume da ade kat list nyoq.. :(

nak tag meke nih la..

bliss
babe
alongku dapi

Yeay dapat kad rayeeeee.......

2008-09-19T16:13:00.008+02:00

Yeay yeay... ingtkn duk jauh2 ni xde la nak dapat kad raya....
nasib bek aku wat blog nih b4 raya..
dapat la kad raya..
walaopon x dapat ku pegang kad raya itu..
tp takpe...
kehadirannya dalam page aku tetap memeriahkan jiwa dan ragaku..hahaha...

time kaseh kelapanyor for this labli kad raya... labiuu...

tgk ni tgk ni....

Kad raye untuk org len nnt la yek...laptop koi osak sbenarnye..ni pon pinjam kawan nye laptop..kalo sempat koi watkan...

Sempena raya yg da nak dekat ni...
Koi mintak ampun mintak maaf andai ada terkasar bahasa..tersilap kata..terlampau eksen..terbelagak..tersombong.. ngan aok2 sume...

Untuk Special Guest yg tah masuk lagi ke x kat page ni.. yuya susun sploh jari tgn je (jari kaki tamo la buruk skit..) mohon maap kat ko..halalkan makan minum aku kay..

My housemates yg cumil2 skalian..bergumbiralah korang sume beraya kat mesia meninggalkan aku keseorangan kat sini..duit raya yg korang dapat bahagi dua kasik kat aku separuh tau!!

So long n goodbye guys..~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...Maaf Zahir dan Batin...

~Yuna vs Yuya~

2008-09-18T18:13:00.004+02:00

Yuna...
Nama da nk dekat ngan nama aku... hakhak...
Dalam ramai2 gurls yg aku tgk men gitar..this is da first who made me feel like...
''Arghh...no way man..!!"

Wuts dat supposed to mean..?

Dun really understand wut kind of feeling i have rite now...
I really like music..but dats not my first priority...
I wanna b like her... but i know my ability..
She got a very loud n creamy voice..
A damn good strummer...
A nice appearance..wut else...haha..

Phew~ Let's get my feet back on da ground..
Last2 ape yg kua lam my mind is... Maksue go back n baca buku laaa..~
hahahahaha....

.:END:.

High School pon jadi la...

2008-09-18T14:25:00.002+02:00

Movie Reviews

Arini pegi jalan2 sekitar blog2 bedekatan...
mencari2 idea yg x pena kua dari pale otak ku yg cumil nih..
tgk blog mizz..tejumpe Blog Readability Test ni...
maka...aku tanpe fikir panjang trus test tahap ke'readable'an blog aku...
So..ni je aku dapat..
....high skul....
nape x dapat GENIUS cam lana...:((
mebi aku kene membongokkan lagi blog aku so dat aku leh dapat tahap
GENIUS!!!

Sape Minum Ribena..?

2008-09-16T20:16:00.009+02:00

Ngehehehe...
Baru aku tringat aku ade snap sumthing tuk aku post kat blog neh..
Tadaaaa.....cube korang teke ape mendalah2 neh...

Sape2 yang ade prasan status aku kat YM mgkn leh guess kot..?
Sebenarnye..these are the love letters which i wrote malam semalam...
tuk sape yek...?
well actually aku ade kirim barang2 tuk family aku thru my fren yg balik Mesia tu...
so...to make da kiriman a bit more merrier..aku pon ngade2 la menulis n meng'create' love letter-love letter tersebut..hakhak...
skali tgk aku ase aku masih di alam kanak2...bunga sane bunga sini...love sane love sini...bosan je aku tgk pages tu kosong..so aku tambah la macam2....
Kan best kalo nak edit layout blog nih camtu je... xperlu html2 sekalian..x perlu codes2 yg tah hape2 tah..huahua...
Ade sorang manusia neh suke tnye ape motif aku buat sumthing2 neh...
So..tuk manusia tesebut..motif post yg neh.. x dapat dikesan...buat la guessing snirik..hikhik..

Cetim-cetim Di Celah Pokok Mangga...

2008-09-16T18:08:00.004+02:00

wallaweyh...selebet nye tajuk...cane tah leh terkua tajuk tu dr pale otak yg da x bape nk betol neh...

tgh pening mencari lagu2 raya nk taruk kat page neh..sempena raya yg da nak dekat nih...
sambil2 share feeling raya tanpa family..kawan2 rapat kat sini pon sume balik..tggl sorg je membe, nasib bek yg tu x balik..kalo dye pon balik harus aku mereng jap..hukhuk...

sambil2 dgr lagu raya ni aku pon x tau nk melalot ape skang neh....

lepak2 room Pahang:2 td (tmpt lepakku di alam maya), angahku Lexcumi sibuk spin lagu raya...
aku pon tanpe segan silu mintak nk nyanyi lagu sesuci lebaran yg siti nyanyi tu...
maka timbulla plan aku nk mintak bob membe aku yg pegang tugas Dj tuk majlis raya kat Mansoura ni, tuk carikan minus one lagu tu n kasik aku perform on dat day...hakhak..
adakah idea ku gila ataupon waras?? sape2 tulun bg aku jawapan yg bernas peliss......

phew~ sedar x sedar..da 16 september da pon arini... result exam aritu kua 20 nih..
wahh...aku kegelisahan...!!
tp ape2 pon result yg bakal kua..aku redha je la.. :D mgkn inilah dia kebahagiaan..hukhuk...tibe2 masuk lirik lagu yg aku dgr nih...

makin dewasa..makin sentimental lak jiwa aku...kejap2 rindu kat family...kejap2 rindu kat membe2...dulu zaman kanak2 ribena xde lak nk sibuk2 rindu...haih...

meh tarik nafas....bebelan aku kali ni da abis!! mandi jum yus!!~ arini yus tade la plak..mentang2 yuya lom mandi...huarghakhak..

~so much for my happy ending~

Pergi~

2008-09-16T02:38:00.006+02:00

Hurm...sape yg pergi nih...?

It was Monday morning...i suddenly woke up to the voice of my frenz, to the sounds of luggage being carried out to the lounge...the first thing i did was to sit on my chair n give my laptop a morning kiss..huahua...well dats very routine~

I got out from my room after i finally gave up to enter YOUTUBE site!! virus detected!! It really tensed me up..duhh~~

The tense keep rising as i walked thru the lounge making my way to the bathroom...big big bags on the floor with thousands of things to be packed!! They're going back to MALAYSIA!!??

I let the rain drops from the shower massage my body while imagining what will actually happen for the next two months?? Me and another mate..in this huge white house? Wut shud we do? How do we spend our time when there's only TWO OF US? aku tgk ko, ko tgk aku..camtu ke?

Sadness n loneliness is wut i actually feel rite now.....

Is this how my late grandparents feel everytime we're going back to KL after a week of Raya at Kampung? Cuz i always saw tears running down my Mek's(grandma) face when we kissed her goodbye.. Ayoh (grandpa) wud stand at the door with his bitter smile, tata-ing us until we're out of his sight...this touching moment is very fresh in my memory..i wud always miss my Ayoh n Mek...they're good person..they're my best memory ever!

Everytime we visit Ayoh n Mek at Kampung.....
Ayoh wud definitely take us for a ride on his 'lori burok'..we stand merrily on the back of da truck..we go round da Kampung.. taking every breath of fresh air.. saying Hi to all the villagers.. Ayoh is very friendly....to EVERYBODY...!! He's is a very nice one.. He gave me ideas of being good to everybody..
He always asked me to go out with him.. He drove his black Datsun with me on his side..searching things dat Mek asked him to buy..huhu..he's cute! hurm..i missed him...
When he was sitting in front of the house, he called us down..asked each of us to stand on his feet..wut did he do? he calculate our weight by counting how many times he can lift us up with his feet..haha..kids always believe the older ones!! i do trust him anyway~ cuz i ate a lot n he told me dat my weight increased every year!! (yeah dats natural~)

Well.. Mek is very caring..she likes to cook Gulai Ayam which i liked the most! no one can ever cook like her... the best part is..when she did the cooking, she wud also be the one to 'suap' all of us,her CUCU!! We sat around her...waiting for our turn to be feed..haha... the taste of her fingers are undescribable..the feeling of love..her smile was so sweet... there, she taught us about patience...
at times..she asked me to massage her..this is when she told me the stories of her life... sumtimes i wonder why she keep repeating the same old stories..? but now i know.. she's happy when she did dat...i missed her too...

The person we love wud do everything they could, just make us happy..just to make us a better person..just to see smile on our face... But we will never realise dat we really love n appreciate them till the time when they have to leave us......FOREVER.....

Girls Nite Out~

2008-09-14T23:29:00.003+02:00

helluw...wuts up guys...just came back from jalan2 with my frenz yg da nak balik mesia a few days lagi...hukhuk...they're leaving me all alone out here.... .:nangis:.

i'd like to share a few things dat happened just now..~ huarghh...aku paling bengang + ngeri + sedeyh + sian kat sekor kuda yg mude remaja sekor nih... sambil kitorg lepak kt cakehouse(El-Baron), sambil kitorg belasah tiramisu n mango juice n sambil kitorg berposing2 cam hape tah.. suddenly dgr bunyik libasan2 yg menggerunkan...
alahai sian tol aku tgk si kuda yg x besalah tu di sebat2 beribu2 kali ngn tuan dia..
aku x kesah kalo tuan dye nk sebat sbb nak suh jalan...tp cube la kesiankan skit kuda tu...
dah la banyak barang nak kene heret..plus jalan tu berbukit..si tuan tu plak dgn tegarnye memukul2 dan menyebat2 tanpa belas kasihan...kitorg kat tepi ni da tetutup2 mulut duk men cikucak(tutup2 mate) sbb x sampai ati tgk...
sampaikan kaki kuda tu da lemah longlai tuan tu still nak belasah dye..haihhh kureng nye pak arab...
pastu..lega skit bile si tuan tu bawak kuda dye benti jap tepi jalan... tapi.... .:risau:.
rupe2nye...si tuan tu pegi kat depan kuda tu...pastu... dye p lempang kuda dye..!!?? .:nanes:. x gune sungguh...haihhh.... geram!!

hurm..camtu la arab kalo korg sume nak tau..sbb tu la jugak Allah turunkan nabi sumenye kat arab..sbb camtu la salah satu jenis manusia yg wujud kat sini...
haih..bile la leh balik mesia n never come back to egypt balik..??

wuteva pon..sronok la bg meke2 yg bakal balik kampung raya ni...
hoo hoo hoo balik kampung...
hoo hoo hoo balik kampung...
hoo hoo hoo balik kampung...
hati riang...~~

tinggallah aku sorang..............

~From me to You~

2008-09-14T02:36:00.003+02:00

“knowing u,
means a lot to me…
being with u,
brightens up my life…
waiting for u,
gives me hope..
being apart from u,
is the last thing i ever wanted..

everytime i laugh…
i saw the sun shining on ur face..
everytime i cry…
i saw your lemme-hug-u look on ur face…
everytime i give u ‘dat’ kind of look..
i saw your i-really-wanna-know-why face…

knowing u..
i wanna know u more…
being with u…
i wanna be with u always….
waiting for u…
i wanna wait for u forever…
being apart from u…
is the last thing i ever wanted..”

written by : Yuya

A million thanx to Paksue~

2008-09-14T02:01:00.005+02:00

before i forgot..i wud like to thanx my paksue for promoting diz blog kt status beliau, walaupon beliau mengaku neh blog beliau..hakhak..lame gak betahan status tu..ramai gak la penghinggap2 kat blog nih...time kasih daun keladi...jasamu dikenang...
maka, terimalah hadiah penghargaan ini dari beta..kereta kegemaranmu~

p/s: paksue..ni kire tahap capub x ni..?hukhuk..kete da siap paking kat depan uma tu..sile la menjamu selera..

Midnight just passed~

2008-09-14T01:25:00.004+02:00

wow..oredi 1 20am..sedar x sedar..da bape jam aku strum gitar yg aku pinjam tu sampai jari da pon da keras...ni sume penangan lagu garasi-hilang(acoustic) yg aku jumpe kat youtube aritu la ni...hadoih..sakit tol jari..cane nak jadi rock star neh?? haha..
angan2 cinderella versi avril jap..hukhuk..

before midnight td..lepak kat bilik membe sorg nih...my lil fren just broke up ngn bf dye..menangis teresak2 si kechil yg manje tuh..sian sgt tgk...so sebagai membe yg baik ati (kembang2 idom jap) ngn membe2 lain (baik jugak le gamak nye), same2 la bagi dye nih support..suh b strong n try to forget mamat tuh... dalam hati..aku tefikir... why must a relationship end..LIKE DAT? sepanjang hidup aku, aku lebeh byk tgk boys yg dump girls..kenapa ye...? and for many reasons, satu je reason yg aku x jumpe.. kenapa alasan yg paling x munasabah yg diorang akan bagi bile nk break up? confuse confuse~

wuteva pon..just praying dat my fren will grow stronger...adatla bila ade permulaan..mesti ade akhirnye...tp bile ade akhir..sedeyh pon x le nk tahan gak...huhuhu...yg pastinye jiwa aku yg lembut bagai sutera ni sentiasa kuat..hakhak...ye x cik shisha..? ("begitu la gamaknye.." jawab cik shisha kat sebelah ni)

so, last2 tinge aku duk dengar gak lagu garasi ni bekali2 tanpa henti..(ajaran sifu aku benama bliss bilis kering tu)......... lalalalala~

Hurm....?

2008-09-13T20:41:00.003+02:00

hikhik...baru je lepas pomot kat certain2 people on my ym list...
tibe2 si makhluk lonjong ni suh upload vid nih kat page nih..
ape maksud pon x dapat dikenalpasti...nak aku jadi cam dye tu ke..? or nak kate muke aku cam dye tuh ke..hakhak..or..nak samekan kulit aku ngn kulit dye..mane satu yek...tp xpe..customer comes first!ikut permintaan hati dye~hikhik..

current mOod~

2008-09-13T20:07:00.004+02:00

exam is over...buku da abis baca...nak balik kampung plak xde transport..private jet aku sume da gadai gara2 nak bayar yuran skola thn lepas..kapal2 besau plak da lame x servis..nak sebis pakai duit lagi..haihh...so terdampar la aku kat dunia bedebu yg crowded nih...maka untuk mengelakkan diri di'crowd'kan di samping manusia2 yg kurang aku gemari, this is wut i do untuk menghilangkan boring...tp neh bukan aku la..kalo aku da mantap baru aku taruk video aku kat lam page nih...hekhek...

Kepenatan.....

2008-09-13T19:20:00.004+02:00

Fuhh..very tiring to sit in front of my beloved laptop setting ni setting tu..haih... korang sume x penat ke melawa2kan blog korang...? ohh tidak~ bisakah aku meneruskan perjuangan menulis dan mengarang dan menconteng2 blog ku ini...??
huarghaha...well...quite interesting actually..but kinda pening to search this n that without guidance..anyway, ade sorang hamba Allah tu once told me to be independent! "independent la skit..!" tu la dye kate..so,starting from dat time, no more relying on others as long as i can do it by myself...huhuhu...
So guys..skang ni skit ni dulu i can do for my blog...
jenguk baju dapo bilik sume2 yg besepah2 tu..hakhak..selekeh tol hidup nih...

Buat sume..nantikan adegan2 hot dari page beta yg bersih lagi suci ini....

p/s: mizz meh la tolongggggg.....warghkakaka..

Finally....

2008-09-13T18:21:00.001+02:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....
haha..nak tegelak jugak cuz finally tercipta jugak blog yang korang tunggu2 selama nih...
(macam la ade yg menunggu..hikhik)..
Dah lame tegerak hati nak wat blog nih..sejak life menjadi a bit susah..bile hati kadang2 rase nak sangat nangis..bile xde orang untuk aku share ape yang aku rasa...selama ni..ape yang aku rasa sume aku simpan..kadang2 borak sorang2 untuk lepaskan ape yg tersirat ape yg terhalang dalam hati nih...
wateva pon..tuk pelawat2 blog aku..thanx aku ucapkan sbb sudi menjenguk page aku yg x seberapa nih..
for the time being, idea dalam kepala ni x seberapa lagi tuk aku curahkan...tapi aku akan usahakan jugak tuk menghapdet blog neh...
lepas ni mungkin aku perlukan pertolongan sifu2 bertauliah especially mizz, bliss n lana..haha..so korang bertiga, harap besedia la tuk meluangkan masa tuk si kecil yg tidak bersalah ni...hakhak..
So...marilah kite memblogkan diri...yeeehaaa.....